Miss You Much

I want to be dead, so I won’t feel no more
I want to be dead, so I won’t hear no more
I want to be dead, so I won’t see no more
I want to be dead, so I won’t remember no more
I want to be dead, I Miss you so bad

Picture of You

I've been looking so long at these pictures of you
that i almost believe that they're real
i've been living so long with my pictures of you
that i almost believe that the pictures are all i can feel

remembering you standing quiet in the rain
as i ran to your heart to be near
and we kissed as the sky fell in
holding you close how i always
held close in your fear

remembering you running soft through the night
you were bigger and brighter than the snow
and screamed at the make-believe screamed at the sky
and you finally found all your courage to
let it all go

remembering you fallen into my arms
crying for the death of your heart
you were stone white so delicate lost in the cold
you were always so lost in the dark

remembering you how you used to be
slow drowned you were angels
so much more than everything
oh hold for the last time then slip away quietly
open my eyes but i never see anything

if only i had thought of the right words
i could have hold on to your heart
if only i'd thought of the right words
i wouldn't be breaking apart all
my pictures of you

Looking So long at these pictures of you but i
never hold on to your heart looking so long for
the words to be true but always just breaking
apart my pictures of you

there was nothing in the world that i ever wanted more
than to feel you deep in my heart
there was nothing in the world that i ever wanted more
than to never feel the breaking apart
all my pictures of you

The Cure

Cinematic Sunset

I ask you..
do i have to stay away from you?
you didn't answer that..
i dunno for sure, but i feel ignored
no more chat in the night
no more sms
and your eyes see trough me

I ask you..
to meet me upstairs, so we can enjoying sunset
but you missed the moment
and here I'm... alone

I told you i love you & care for you
you didn't say a word

You want us to erase our feelings
before it takes more victims
victims because our feelings?
is my love to you is hurting someone?

I'm sorry..
:(

I'm Sensitive

Tiap aku liat kamu lagi sibuk chatting sama temen2 kamu di BB
ak ngerasa terasing
kamu bisa ngobrol sesuka kamu kapanpun kamu mau,
bahkan saat kamu sibuk sekalipun kamu masih sempet bales message mereka
kamu bisa berhubungan dengan mereka tanpa halangan jarak & waktu
sedangkan dengan aku.......tidak

Aku harus selalu menunggu kesempatan yang baik untuk ngobrol sama kamu
kadang hanya untuk membicarakan hal2 kecil aja ak harus pastiin waktunya tepat
belum lagi interupsi2 entah dari ada orang yg mendeket atau telpon kantor yg berdering..

Haruskah aku punya benda kecil bernama BB itu?
supaya aku selalu bisa ngobrol sama kamu tiap aku mau
berkangen kangenan sama kamu, cerita2 apapun termasuk apa yang sedang ngusik hati dan pikiran aku
jujur...aku lebih suka ngobrol langsung sama kamu
karena lebih sedikit kemungkinan untuk ada salah paham
disamping itu aku juga bisa nikmatin liatin wajah kamu
denger suara kamu....
karena semua itu adalah hal yg indah dan menyenangkan buat aku

dan sekarang ak ngerasa terasing dari kamu :(

14 Maret 2011 - 18:17

The Loudest Sound

Side by side in silence
They pass away the day
So comfortable, so habitual...
And so nothing left to say

Nothing left to say
Nothing left to say

A Lesson Learned

This pain
in my stomach
wont go away.
I assume
this is punishment
from all
the mistakes ive made.

In a world where my actions
speak louder than words.
In a world where my actions
speak louder than words
I know more people than ever before.
One lesson ive learned from it all.
Fortune and fame are disguised as your friend
cuz im lonlier now than ive ever been.

Fog of Confusion

Today i feel lost...
I can't bear to think, I'm scared for doing something
I just want to stay lay down in bed all day long
Expecting that If I fall asleep again
hopefully when i wake up the storm inside my head is disappear.
at least for a while....sigh
But my body feel stiff and sprain...so "MGM" i have to wake.